1:22am

It's 1:23am right now, and about a minute ago i really wanted to hug someone. I miss hugging people (like bruce) everyday. I document this because I'm afraid I'll forget this moment shortly afterwards.

Lighting

You ever have those moments in life that you think are insignificant while they are happening, but they get burned into your memory and you can never forget that snapshot in your life? Maybe some of you know what I'm talking about, maybe most of you don't. But I have these "checkpoints" of a sort from time to time, and I just had this beautiful one. This was back in my first semester in Japan, and I was biking home when I stop in the 7-11 to get something, and when I walk out I see Ronan standing outside. The night sky gave us the backdrop, and the 7-11 provided the dramatic white lighting, our outlines catch the light pouring out of the glass windows of the konbini, and there we are, an irish and an american, our cultural/national/self identities stripped by this raw moment, and for those 5 minutes that we stop and talk, we are but two lost agendas trying to find ourselves in Japan. Insignificant enough for me to remember, insignificant enough for me to make more sense of my year.

My Hair is Black

Life has become placid again since returning to the land of opportunity, foreclosures and big giant banks crumbling before your very eyes. In Japan, i substituted fun for the lack of busy school work. Here, I'm always collecting the honey, and when i'm not doing that I just... sit down? stare at the computer screen hoping some nice discounted item will pop up on some retail website and I'll convince myself to buy it because its so CHEAP. Who doesn't like cheaper stuff? I'm a sucker for the sale section. Or I'm rumaging through library trash cans collecting coke points because I found out the night librarian is collecting them too and I want it to be a fully blown out coke cap collecting war. About the only thing that pushes me like nothing else is competition, and that librarian might well be the only reason i now am much more adamant about collecting than I was last week. What else do I do? I don't give or get hugs anymore. I went from one everyday, or more, to none. It's like smoking but imagine little blue smurfs coming up to steal your cigarette everytime you put one in your mouth. I'm also deciding whether I should go to China to study abroad or stay here in school for a bit longer, or just graduate and hope on finding a job in the desperate financial times that we live in. Oh my, what will my Chinese parents think when I haven't got a job when I graduate? And I'm going abroad again? Well, that I'm not too worried about, but, as most offer-less soon to be college graduates feel, its more the coming lack of academic structure that I haven't experience for 16 years, the lack of having something committal to do, and the uncertainty of the future that's screaming at me: do something, do anything.

Top 10

1. Being home when its pouring outside
2. Hiding in my blankets for those extra minutes before i wake up to a freezing cold room to start my day
3. walking on fresh snow before anyone else
4. losing sleep because i just have to find out what's on the next page
5. the chase
6. looking through my candid pictures because they remind me of my life frozen at that very moment
7. riding my bike with my eyes closed and my arms out ready to take off into the skies
8. the moment i wake up, and i feel sore for the first time from excercising
9. when i know i've tried my best
10. when friends make me laugh

touching my toes

I've been taking taekwondo classes at school, and its more or less like Billy Blanks has taken over the body of a 40 something year old white man who happens to be the gym teacher. A lot of stretching, a lot of punching and kicking air, and by the end of the hour I am sore as can be. But well, heres been a goal of mine since from maybe when I was 6 years old when all the other kids could do it and i couldn't: I want to touch my toes. I now stretch everyday with this goal in mind. Also, it helps that stretching early in life will lead to less chronic muscle pain the future. Yeah, I really dont want to be one of those immobile old people. after I can touch my toes without it feeling that the circulation to my legs is cutting off, maybe I'll go for a split. maybe I'll be able to stretch like a ballerina one day. I would like that. As long as I don't give up in the middle, because I do that to myself alot.

I want to go back to Japan.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I hate the meaningful-ultimately-not-so-meaningful quotes people splatter on their facebook profiles, their blogs, blah blah blah. That's why I've never put one up, until now.

Elevating myself above the masses of celluloid mental waste in this city, in fact, this world. I am dismayed by how disabled this earth is. What constitutes celluloid mental waste? People who live vicariously, people who live in a mundane robotic state of existence, people who are phony wannabes, people who are Traitors, people who are Lazy, people who are unpassionate, lifeless, and dull. I treasure those who exude Confidence to say Fuck You to a world that tells you You Can't, You're too Wierd, You're too different, You're just Too Much.

I think I'm in L.O.V.E., Bao Tranchi.

A Midwinter Night's Dream

Look I can type so fast Look I can type so fast and I don't even suse the right form
Mybame us tinue ijgura my name is tomie okuhira
Look I can type so fast even when I am drunk olook I can type so fast I
Look I can type so fast and I odnt even have to be sober, but tomorrow I will dye my hair redder.
This is an interesting monogatari. I think jen can type faster than me. Chips are very delicious. Fuck I guess I don't use my pinky and my ring finger when I type. I think jen is a lesbian. Ore mo. Ore mo. We writing this story while wainting for yoshi san. Yo dthink yoshi san needs a girlfriend. Taira- jan. YO yo Taira jan. Taira jan passport wo nakushiteshimatta . doushiyou soushiyou soushiyou.
Wayne is showing tomie his passport, h
is passport picture looks like mitchi
Da yo ne da yo ne day noe ne day o ne dayoen
Wayne is sitting seiza style like he is hosting a tea ceremony
Mitchi wants to type hold on
Yae I want to dayo yappa yameta
We are singing jingle bells while waiting for yoshi san
“nande hong kong yoku iku no” says tomie
wayne said something I couldn’t hear
tyler has a bit butt and I cannot lie
someone’s phone is vibrating
brrrr brrr
brr
pass it over bitch says wayne nanaki
Wayne calls Jene Bitch oooo
mitchi islooking at wayne’s American passport
ITS YOSHI SANNNNNNNNNNN
The party continues
The story continues
‘dou you imi’ says mitchi
WAKARANNNNN i think
Wayne says ‘mine looks a bit cooler’
YOSHI SAN KITAAAAAAAAA
Yoshi is wearing a sweater and is looking cooler
We saved beer for yoshi
Daijyoubu says wayne chan
Neighbor jyannnnnn !!!
Every page has something different on it says tyler
YATTA YATTA YATTA
Yoshi works at japan
But tyler and wayne went to the wrong japan, they went to the makino japan
We are comparing what color flowers we have on our japan visas
Tyler doesn’t remember when he took his visa picture
Apparently it is not the same as his ID card
WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW OWWOWOWOwOWOWWWO
Hou u doin Yoshi ummmmmm Yoshi seems fine.
Yoshi seems tsukareta day o
Doushiyouuuu
Wayne continues the story from here
Yoshi you need to drink. I wish I could see pink elephants right
Tomie is looking at me with an odd face and is taking pictures of herself with tylerchan’s keitai
I want to smoke I want to smoke. I invited these motherfuckers to smoke with me out of courtesy but these bitches shot me down
I was scatching my head and posing for a pictures on tylers computer
What’s up tyler says yoshi
Nothings up says tyler
It was lonely with you yoshi, we love you
Ore mo
I think we should get drunk off cough syrup or maybe im just talking crazying talk
Jen thought my cough syrup was from China, but I beg to differ
Japan is such a pretty country
Ore mo souomou yo……..yo…yo..yo..yo…OMG im snoozing…………..
The story must continue
Tomie is eating chips
Tyler is stretching his fingers outwards towards Wayne wayne isreturning the favor
E.T. style
Mitchi looks sleepy
Yoshi is eating chips too
Wayne was pink before but his face is returning to normal because of our drinking break
Hey I realized I can type pretty fast
Hmm
Natsuyasumi yoshi ga yondenai
BIKKURIIIII
BIKKURI RAMEN WO TABETAI NEEEEEEEEE
Jen is laughing for no apparent reason at all, so we think she’s lost it
This is beautiful music
Christmas time is here
Oh fuck I realized its Christmas today but it doesn’t feel like Christmas at all
Jen’s got a fucked toenail
We invited keiko, but not Mathew, so she didn’t come
Jars of Clay is on now!
GG GGG GGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Shinu to omou
Yoshi ga
Michi to tomi mo iuta
Tyler started typing now, but Tomie is looking on, while Wayne challenges jen to a duel.
Yoshi is zipping up his jacket, but he seems to be having trouble finding his zipper.
SHINY JACKET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wayne and Yoshi go out to smoke while Tomie just checked her phone.
Speaking partner? Sleeping partner? SMOKING partner!
Shut up jen.
Second page!
I want tim tams… we should have bought them.
Hehehehe
Everyone loves tim tams….
I need to drink more.but this apple computer can’t keep up with my typing.
Hello guys, its tomie! Im so tired! I want to go to bed now! ………… uso desul
Hmmmm oh! I like this music! Metcha tanoshii jan! tyler said jen is crazy… so am i?
Ugh! My thumb hurts! I hit my thumb with a hammer this morning… poor tomie… ;(
Un, mochiron! No Tyler DOES understand Japanese! His Japanese is awesome! What time is it now….? Ok change.
The story continues
Wayne is waving his shirt while he says he likes his cologne
Yoshi is bouncing up and down on wayne’s futon
Yoshi is wearing orange socks, they are really bright
Tyler is nodding his head to the stupid music
Wayne turned the light off and turned it back on
Click click click clik I am typing in the dark
Fucku says Wayne nihonjin ppoi
Yoshi is looking at what I am writing but gave up
I wish we could stop listening to this black music
Wayne wants internet, write that down!!
Tyler is cool with rap music
Wayne says that doesn’t count compared to the internet
Something is yasuiiii says yoshi
Wayne wants to go to school to jew the internet
We need to drink more thinks me
Yoshi is eating calbee chips, yoshi is eating so much, I cannot believe
Tomie’s friend from Australia is coming tomorrow and bringing tim tams
Wayne seems excited
Unkounkounkounkounkounkounko osikko osikko
Fuck!!!!!!!!!! Oh Gosh!!!Blck music just drives me crazy!!!!!!!Fuck!!!!!
ME TOO DA YOOO
This pasocon is meccha atsui
Wayne continues to eat the big bag of ususio chips
Everyone is falling asleep, those sluts, they don't know how to have fun. Jen is sleeping under the cover of my man blanket. I think she likes the smell of it even though she denies it.
We want to read the air and go for a drive. Maybe we should bring back some condoms.
Tashikani
We still have a of liquids left. I guess we’ll have to do this again soon to finish this stuff. Tyler needs to turn his music off.
The life of hitorigurashi is much more fun than living in seminar house or homestay, but the hoestay ofod is much better. Fuck.
I guess we’re all sleeping here. Goodnight monogatari.
Ohayougozaimasu. Genki desuka ? watashi wa genki desu, demo mada sukoshi nemutai desu. Kyou wa Christmas nanoni there is no present! Why?! I don't understand! Santa San! Michi ni mayotta? MICHI? Mitch! Mmm Disney world… I really want to go! Mickey mouse ni aitai yo! Wait…. How old is mickey mouse? Zettai Absolutely Mickey mouse is Ojiichan dane. Waynes clothes are too big for Yoshi. Zannen. Gamba Yoshi.