Scared

In day to day life, there are many things that I want to do, but I am always held back by something, an excuse, an illogical reason, a logical reason, even if i intend to do that one particular thing. Inhibition. For more than anything, I wish I could throw this inhibition away, all of it. But even if I want to, when it does get down to crunch time, I just cannot. Scared. of what will happen afterwards. This is usually the case with love. "Love." why why why WHY, why does this exist? Why can I not just tell her everything? My thoughts, my intentions, and more. I am scared. Scared that it will all end too fast. Scared that it will end before it begins. Scared to know it will end. Scared that it will end. I hope it won't, and that is all I hope for at this point. I hope.